People run from rain but sit in bathtubs full of water.
People run from rain but sit in bathtubs full of water.
It hurts to let go. Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it’s so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn’t coma back. You’re left so alone that you can’t explain. Damn, there’s nothing like that, is there? I’ve been there and you have too. You’re nodding your head.
Real healing begins when you scoop out the lies of your distorted thinking and replace them with God’s truth about you. This will hurt. But it’s the only way to real freedom and peace and joy. Everyone will naturally resist this because it feels corny or intrusive, but more than that, it feels undeserved. When we’re so comfortable with the dark, we squint at the possibility of things getting better in the light.
Yet God is so willing to rub the salt of His Word on your wounds so that you can wake up from your own self-loathing. He’s the well of cool water for your bruised tired hands. He’s the only love who could fulfill you enough not to overreact to the pain. God really does want you to know that you are not what has happened to you nor what you’ve done. Jesus came to take your wounds into his own hands and feet, so that you may live. He did this for our final victory in eternity: but he also did this for you today, in this moment, so you may experience a foretaste of that wholeness. And God is going to move at your tempo, never rushing, because He knows that your healing will take a step at a time. But so we must be willing to hold up those truths to our naked hurt, because healing begins with honesty.
There is no such thing as a “broken family.” Family is family, and is not determined by marriage certificates, divorce papers, and adoption documents. Families are made in the heart. The only time family becomes null is when those ties in the heart are cut. If you cut those ties, those people are not your family. If you make those ties, those people are your family. And if you hate those ties, those people will still be your family because whatever you hate will always be with you.
God wants you. The God of the Universe wants YOU. It’s not some Uncle Sam poster where you walk by and of course the army wants you, but they want everyone else and there’s no difference. He’s equally not some Ivy League school that only accepts some people. God wants you PERSONALLY. He knew your name before your parents picked it. He knows the number of hairs on your head. He knows every ache of your beating heart. He knows how much you need Him, and He wants to accept YOU. And He has a personal desire to build a relationship with you.
He wants you so bad that He sent His Son to die on a cross - to take your place…to win you back.
He will never leave you, never forsake you, never ignore you.
Maybe it’s time to let go. To let go of the people that are hurting you - just for a while. It’s time to let go of the things you struggle with. It’s time to drop the baggage you’ve been carrying, and run to Jesus. If you tell Him all this - all the things you thought could never change…and you tell Him you believe in Him…and you tell Him that you believe God sent His Son to die on a cross for our sins, and that He’s the only way to Heaven….
The things that you thought would NEVER change WILL change.
This isn’t me trying to convert you. I don’t know if you’re a Christian or not. But I know that you’re a human being, and if you’re going to walk away with one message, it’s that you are loved. You are loved more than the love in a Nicholas Sparks novel. You are loved with more than the love of your friends, of your family. You are loved with a love that pursued and chased you so hard, it meant literally DYING to get to you.
Several of my friends didn’t care about me - at least not more than they cared for themselves. Left me behind. It happens to all of us! And at the end of the day, I think our tendency IS to value ourselves above others.
I was alone. The thing about being alone is that whether or not the fault is yours, you’ve got only yourself to blame. And so I stood there, for a while. I cried over it. I was broken hearted over it.
It was then that Jesus said - you are NOT alone and I will NOT let you be broken. Romans 8:18 says that our temporary sufferings can’t even compare to the eternal GLORY that’s coming. Let me tell you loud and clear - that glory is from Jesus, and you can have some of it right now.
You are loved. You are wanted. You are not alone.
There is no better love story than the one you’re living, and God has been chasing you since the day you were born. If you turn around and see Him behind you, and you just look…just take a moment to set things straight…confirm who you are, and who He is.
You will never be the same.
You will NEVER be the same.
It’s in all the places in our lives that feel like the end, that God creates the beginning, for we never truly lived. It’s in the moments that take our breath away, where we’re racked with tears and sorrow that God gives us breath for the first time, for we never truly breathed. It’s in the moments where you have lost love - some far off, unattainable, unpredictable, imperfect thing, that God reveals His love for the first time, for we never truly loved.
This moment is the beginning of a life and love that will last not just till the day you die, but forever.
It’s yours. Take it. Whether this is the first time or the thousandth - confirm who God is - that there is power in the name of Jesus, and give it to Him.